Moody
Sometimes I’m so angry I keep quiet only because I think I’d spew flames and not words.
Some days I look at people I see everyday and I notice the worry lines on their faces so clearly, it is all I can do to stop myself from reaching out to touch them and offer comfort.
Other days I wish I could zap them into a black hole.
There are times I feel so unbearably, hungrily, gnawingly empty I wonder why I don’t vanish into the vaccuum myself.
And yet again, I feel like I’m overflowing with every emotion and sensation ever known to humankind.
Some nights I go to sleep feeling complete and that all’s okay with the world. And then I wake up with the unbearable thought that I’m still alive in this same world.
Everyone has days that sound like this. The only difference is that my days are series of moments like these.
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1abhi
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 2:16
I’ll sign the compliance report on this …
this holds for most of us …
2Madame Mahima
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 9:24
ahhh how true smithy..very nicely put.
Sometimes I’m so angry I keep quiet only because I think I’d spew flames and not words.
SO get what you mean..everyone knows..the more quiet i become the more pissed off i am.
well..what else is there to do but to just go where each moment takes you?
3manuscrypts
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 10:25
hmm, its no longer an exclusive club…
4rumpelstiltskin™
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 10:35
does this mean that the long breaks between posts (if any) are not absence of any new ideas, but actually are ideas which have more of flames than words ?
5IdeaSmith
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 13:29
U got it, Iyer. By the way each time I open your blog, my explorer window shuts down. And it looked like a bloody interesting post too…do something!!! I’m dying of curiosity!
6rumpelstiltskin™
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 14:15
hehe… your browser seems to have set its sensible levels to a very ‘high’ level and hence it shuts down as soon as it comes across a coupla few lines from my latest post
so keep trying… alternatively i can mail the post to you, if you dont mind?
7IdeaSmith
wrote on 20 October 2005 at 14:41
That would be nice, rumpy….My email is just_astatistic@yahoo.com. I’ll check my browser settings too.
8APOO
wrote on 21 October 2005 at 1:14
Iyer, does it require a “high sensible level” to filter your blog?
9IdeaSmith
wrote on 21 October 2005 at 10:27
I checked the settings…it still don’t work!!!!!
10Blue Athena
wrote on 21 October 2005 at 11:58
Don’t so many of us go through it, day after day? *sigh*
Btw, “Conversation” is really cool.
Liked it lots.
11rumpelstiltskin™
wrote on 21 October 2005 at 14:44
idea: there is no sensible level settings for browser… but assuming that computers are like human beings… a computer wudnt call that post sensible…
apoo: can you repeat the question
12DC
wrote on 21 October 2005 at 17:36
Beautifully put.